First Day of Ramadhan

No Eating

No Shouting

No TV

No Computer

No Being Crazy

No Gossiping

Back to school on Monday. Oh Noooo..!!! physics test on Monday! I HAVEN'T PREPARED ANYTHING FOR THAT!

hmmphh.. No School, please?? :(  

SANLAT [sidisrom]

readers, hari minggu yang lalu tanggal 16-18 Agustus 2009, siswa kelas X ikut acara SIDIS ROM..!! jadi, itutuh semacam pesantren kilat persiapan Ramadhan. Tempatnya di Bandung, SECAPA [cute ya namanya..hahaha] dan dibimbing sama DT. Ikhwan dan Akhwat dibagi jadi beberapa kelompok. Tiap kelompok ada kakak fasilitator [dari DT] dan kakak rohis [kelas XI].

There, we're given lessons, directions and ways about how to be a better muslim/muslimah. Each day, we had only 2 subjects or even 1 [I forget] which I think is too little [in junior high, I could get 3 till 4 subjects each day]. Actually, we spent most of the time there to joke, mentoring, and laugh rather than "diceramahin" [what's the word? to be lectured?]. FYI, for me, I spent most of the time to SLEEP..! 'cause I was very tired. beside, listening to the speakers just made my eyelids got heavier and heavier.

Yaa, jadi intinya, kalo lo tanya materi apa aja yang dikasih, gw gak akan bisa jawab dengan detail. karena selalu terpotong dengan BLANK dan GAMBAR HITAM. hehehe.. maaf maaf yaa..

gw adalah kelompok 8 which was mostly forgotten by the moderator, kak fahmi. Kesian kelompok gw.. kalo diadu dalam lomba kebersihan, kerapian, dan kekreatifan selalu kalah. asumsi kita sih, karena kakaknya gak tau kita klompok berapa. jadi, dia gak milih kita deh.. zzz kesian yaa.. but, as a good student of 8 SHS, we didn't give up. We still enjoyed our time there, we still finished what we were asked with our best. We still hope kakak-kakak mentor would give us rewards. Eventhough we didn't get what we'd expected.

In team 8, there were :
1. Widyani R [as our leader.. she's the best leader of the best, BTW]
2. Citra
3. Sarah [Sarah Shafa]
4. Sarah [Siti Sarah]= [my second twins hehhee]
5. Mutiara
6. Gemilang
7. Illa
8. Hilla
9. Dilla

And we got "yell yell"...:

Assalamu'alaikum [raihan's song]

Berhitung! [widya's part]
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8... kami dari kelompok lapan siap tanding untuk menang
tuwagapat [widya's part also]

(this one with "jagalah hati" song)
*Kelompok lapan, jangan diremehkan, paling kreatif, kamilah yang terbaik (2x)
Bila cari yang terEKSIS... jawabannya itu kami
Bila cari yang terALIM... lagi-lagi kelompok kami..
kami dari SMAN LAPAN,, ikut SANLAT kelompok LAPAN
bersama kakak yang baik, KAK HAWA dan FATHIMAH
Back to *

(and then, the part which i like the most....)
ciiit... ciiit... buuushhhh DELAPAN [robot movement hehe]

Allahuakbar!! (3x)





yup.. that's it. quite satisfying for us who were forgotten
That's all for Sanlat.. 1 real benefit I could take is.. I've got new FRIENDS and we were so close that time. esp in the night before going to bed... and also the photo session.. all photos we'd taken seem to have lots of memories.. :)

I'm trying to be mature

gw gak tau apakah gw cukup dewasa buat jadi anak SMA dan anak umur 14 tahun. Kayaknya kriteria dewasa gak ada dalam diri gw. Kayaknya gw masih cengeng, gampang down, sama bete. Apakah gw udah dewasa? Kalo denger kata "dewasa", yang muncul di otak gw adalah orang yang bicaranya udah pake otak, gak asbun, punya karisma, bijak, bisa ngadepin kenyataan, dan bisa memaafin orang. Bener gak sih opini gw?

Dewasa itu apa sih sebenernya? Kalo gw masih suka gak bisa maafin orang dan ngedendam, apakah tandanya gw belom dewasa? atau emang sifat gw yang ancur? menyedihkan banget sih gw..

Maafin ya kalo gw pernah dendam sama lo atau siapapun.. kalo gw pernah salah, atau pernah bikin kesel, atau suka caper, atau suka nyebelin. doahin gw supaya bisa berubah.

3 tahun lalu, kalo gw ngadepin hal kayak gini, gw pasti udah 'banjir'. bagus deh, berarti ada peningkatan, karna skarang gw gak banjir, tapi berkaca-kaca. :(

PERSEPSI yaaa ohh [free poem]

oh persepsi..

andai lo gak tumbuh dalam hati gw

gw pasti gak bakal mikir dia bego

andai lo gak pop up di pikiran gw secara tiba-tiba kayak jendela chatting msn

gw pasti gak mikir dia punya pikiran buruk ke gw [jadi intinya gw berprasangka buruk bahwa dia berprasangka buruk ke gw??]

oh persepsi...

andai lo gak tumbuh di HATINYA DIA

dia pasti gak bakal mikir gw anak yang sombong, bandel, dan gaya

oh persepsi...

kenapa lo gak numbuhin rasa senang dan bahagia ke semua orang atas GW??

persepsi yaa persepsi...

tolong dong, bilangin ke semua orang sebelum lo pop up di pikiran mereka..

bahwa lo yang bermuatan negatif itu GAK BAGUS... 

ini AMANAH, ya persepsi.. jangan ditinggalin. OKE?!! SIIPP 

Portal oh portal

readers... hari minggu minggu lalu [gimana sih ngomongnya? jadi double gitu -__-] ya intinya hari minggu deh, gw dateng ke sekolah buat ngerjain tugas. Abis itu, karena alasan tertentu, gw dan temen-temen pergi ke semacam pos siskamling [ga tau sih, itu bener apa nggak, persepsi hehe] yaaa pokoknya suatu tempat deket sekolah gw. Gw dan kawan-kawan berjalan kaki dari sekolah menuju tempat itu. Tempatnya terletak di tengah perkomplekan garuda deket sekolah gw. Di depan gang masuk komplek itu ada portal yang selalu "setengah" terbuka. pas lagi jalan.[...

monolog...] 
"capedeehhh.. mo kemana sih gw? udah sore nih.."

tau tau, pas mau belok gang.... ada portal!!!
sseeiihhhhh... dengan lincah, gw nunduk dan berhasil melewati besi panjang yang tergantung satu setengah meter dari tanah [kalo dari permukaan laut, 0 meter kali ya.. secara disitu banjir -___-"].
back to the story,, pada saat itu ada kebanggaan di hati gw. [monolog] "wetss, ternyata gw semakin dewasa, semakin hati-hati. bagus bagus. 3 tahun lagi gw ikut casting film matrix. hahaha"

acara di pos siskamling itu pun berlangsung dengan lancar seperti kali ciliwung haha. di tengah acara, gw ditelponin sama mama dan kakak gw, akhirnya gw izin pulang deh. gw mo telpon nyokap gw. pengen bilang, gw baru selese. tapi hape gw keburu mati. walhasil, gw minjem hapenya Oliv yang udah 'rada-rada'. sambil jalan menuju sekolah, gw berusaha nelpon mama gw. usaha gw gagal. gara-gara hapenya oliv keypadnya rusak. gw mencet 0856 yang keluar cuma 8 sama 6. perhatian gw pun terfokus pada benda kecil tak layak pakai itu. karena gw takut dimarahin mama garagara kelamaan, gw berjalan dengan full speed. berharap bisa nyampe sekolah dengan cepat.

tau tau....
TOOONNGGG... gw dihantam oleh besi yang diam. pada saat itu, kepala gw serasa ditibanin benda yang beraaat banget. abis itu celenut celenut. trus agak panas-panas gitu. serasa darah gw berhamburan kesana kemari. parahnya temen gw ga ada yang peduli. masing masing pada mikirin jemputannya yang udah kelamaan nunggu, jadi gw dilupain [sedih banget sihh :'(]. penjaga portalnya pun bergeming. dia kira gw angin kali ya?

sebagai siswa yang pantang menyerah dan rajin belajar (?) gw melanjutkan jalan cepat menuju sekolah. sampe sekarang, bekas jedotan nya masih ada dikit. untungnya, walaupun gw pake kerudung, benjolan nya gak keliatan. lucu aja kalo keliatan. hahaha.. tapi bukan itu yang gw takutin. gw takut ada penyumbatan di kepala gw. gimana donnngg??!! kalo gw mau cek ke dokter, mau diapain tuh kepala gw? masa iya mau dibedah?? [ya dirontgen lah sarr sarr. zzz -__-"]

dan sekarang harapan gw untuk casting film matrix hilang sudah....
[LOL! hahahaa]

Kejadian apes di hari Sabtu.. Apes nya BUKAN primata, lho!

Oke, jd gw mau cerita ttg kjadian apes gw hr sbtu lalu..

Jdi, hr sbtu gw ada acara. Di acara itu, kami dilatih untk fokus, sigap, cpt brpikir, dll. Trus, gw n tmen2 dibuatin yell2. Bagian akhir yell yell nya kyk gini : "maaf maaf dong, maaf maaf dong, kami ketauan bengong.."

Appes nya, tuh yell2 malah jdi kenyataan. Huek. Jadi, di pos ProbSolv, dika, tmen gw, lg ngejelasin jwban dr klompok gw. Trus krn gada kerjaan, gw nundukin pndangan (caelah, sar...) walhasil, pikiran gw wisata ke masa lalu, trus time traveling lg ke masa dpn (berandai2 gw berani nantang org di hadapan gw wkt itu. Haha..). trus, stelah lama akhrnya gw tersadar bahwa dr td tuh kk ngliatin gw [cari masalah bin kena semprot dh gw..]. Pas itu, dika blm berenti ngomong. Gw brusaha mencerna omongan nya dia. Tpi serasa pentium -1 , gw ga ngerti dia ngomong apa. Dalem otak gw, gw mikir... Mampus aja nih kalo tau-tau kk di depan gw nanya-nanyain gw.

Tak lama kmudian, terdengar teriakan yg scara gasadar, udah gw tunggu-tunggu. "SARAAAHH.. Mnurut kmu gmana pernyataan dika?!" akhrnya gw jawab semampu gw.. Dan kk nya ngangguk2. Gatau sih, maksudnya dia ngangguk-ngangguk tuh krna dia berpikir jwban gw bener, atau dia berpikir "ni anak bner-bener bengong"

Jadi, intinya... YA, BENER, GW B-E-N-G-O-N-G..!! Trus jadi kenyataan kan, tuh yell-yell?!!? Gw jd penasaran.. pnya ilmu apa sih, nih kk sampe bsa baca pikiran gw? Giliran gw pnya bantahan, kk nya ga suruh gw ngomong. Eeh..giliran gw BENGONG, kk nya malah nyuruh gw ngomong..!!
Bgitulah, sodara-sodara.. sama kayak nasib, gak bsa ditebak apa yg akan terjadi. [maafin gw yang tau tau gak nyambung. Lg error nih..]

Cita-Cita... nyampe gak ya??

oke, gw adalah siswa Indonesia yang bermimpi untuk kuliah di HARVARD, sodara-sodara..!! kurang sinting apa lagi, sih, anak yang satu ini??! Oke, ceritanya, waktu itu, gw lagi maen beken-bekenan 'future university' ama temen gw. [mengarang bebas mode : on]. kebanyakan milihnya universitas dalem negri kayak UI, ITB, UGM, dll..keren sih, tapi namanya juga lagi maen beken bekenan, jadi gw nyari yang rada langka, ya nggak? the first thing showed up in my mind was... HARVARD..!! kenapa?? karena tulisan harvard ada di sampul buku CAMPUS gw.. ahahha.. gak deng, eh iya, eh enggak, eh ah eh.. bbzztt..

the problem is,, tuh universitas jadi nyantol di otak gw... parahnya lagi, waktu itu gw accidentally ngeliat abang gw lagi nonton 'love story in HARVARD'.. trus gw malah nonton filmnya.. trus,, gw JADI PENGEN BANGET KULIAH KESONOOO...!!!wa lhasil, cita cita gw adalah jadi dokter saraf lulusan harvard sekaligus jadi ibu rumah tangga yang mendidik anak anak nya serta menjaga harta suaminya..

nah sekarang, the question is.. kira-kira gw bisa gak jadi kayak gitu? hemm.... berat sih.. tapi kayak yang gw bilang di posting sebelumnya, bahwa gw ambisius.. tapi entah kenapa, ya.. gw teringet bahwa kehidupan dunia hanya sementara. apakah gw hidup cuma buat belajar tiap hari ampe lumutan, masuk harvard, jadi dokter trus selese?? kapan gw belajar agama islam dengan kaffah?? kapan gw bisa ngikutin sunnah2 Rasulullah SAW? [wetsah rohis nya keluar.. hehehehee]

bingung bingung.. apakah cita cita gw yang satu ini mesti dilepaskan saja??
jadi inget kata-kata yang selalu gw bilang pas wawancara nih... "I'm smart enough to know that I can't always get everything I want".. hahaha klasik banget gak sih??

setelah 14 tahun gw hidup....

setelah 14 gw hidup di dunia.. gw baru sadar bahwa kekurangan gw adalah....... terlalu banyak kelebihan. Hahahahhaa.. ngaco abis...!! flawless amat gw yak kalo gitu.. haha. canda.

SERIUS [ehem] hal-hal yang gw ragu akan esensi nya [caelahh dapet perbendaharaan baru nih gw. hehehheee :D] dan gw bingung apakah itu baek bwt gw :
1. gw intra personal. sanking intra nya,, gw sampe berpikir kalo gw ini hidup. Dan gw didampingin sahabat yang bisa gw ajak curhat. nah, sahabat itu adalah diri gw sendiri. percaya gak sih kalo gw sering ngmong sendiri...?! yahh misalnya, kadang2 gw pengen pulang sendirian, trus di metromini gw sering bergumam ngebahas kesalahan2 gw, ato hidup gw, atau apa yang gw liat saat itu, dll. [eh parah bneer nih anak. sinting ape gile, ye?]

2. gw ambisius. jujur, gw ini sebenernya ambisius. gw bakal kerja keras banget nget nget kalo gw udah pengen sesuatu. syarat nya cuma 1, gw bener bener SUKA sama hal itu. Jadi, kalo suatu saat lw ngeliat gw bermalas malasan atau ber-'ngambang' ria, tandanya hal yang sedang gw lakuin itu gak gw suka. tapi, kalo suatu saat lw liat gw semangat banget, tandanya I'm running for something I've been dreaming for. [caelah sar, bahasanya... -___-]


itu aja sih.. jadi menurut lw, dua hal di atas positif kah atau negatif?

TWINS....!!!!

okay, there're so many NEW twin couples I've known lately. I don't know why but for me, twin is something special [bukan iklan twin 'rokok' yehh!!!]. Seriously...!! having a twin sister/brother is like you're one person in two bodies. i mean, they [the twins] shared the small space in their mother's womb together. [Actually it's very rare, but if possible...they came from the same sperm..!!!!!!! How LOVELY is thaaaat...??!! And in my mind, if i had a twin sister, I'd switch my life with hers sometime [probably that could make my life a lil bit challenging and not boring. bah!jah!hah! sar...sar...]


what i don't like about twin is... why are people keep thinking that ME and MY BIG SISTER are twinnnsss...??!!! WE'RE NOT! and stop saying that my face looks like hers..because It doesn't! just because we wear veil and our postures have a similarity in height, doens't mean that we're twins. OK??!!

sarah shafa marwadhani and gina mxxxxxx are not twiiinns..!! is that CLEAR..??!! thanks :p

are you twins?? share your story pleaasse.. hhhheehhee

OSN vs MY MIND

Readers,, now I'm feeling 2 opposite feelings in a same time. [easy for you to guess] SAD and HAPPY.

why am I being so sad??
this morning, was the announcement of OSN medal winners. unfortunately, 2 [TWO] of my best friends didn't win that olympiad. SO SAD.. I don't know what to say to them. Because they've worked so hard -very hard- and I know that. But I don't want them to think that "it's unfair" or something like that. because in my opinion, that words don't have any essentials.

Talking about "essentials", I wanna tell you bout my happy feelings. Well, I'm so happy cause I've fulfilled my promise to Ka Aya. I promised her that I'd 'standstill' in that 'kaderisasi' untill the final test [for our [especially] MY safety, I'd better not mention the name :)]. That final test was today... and that means I'M FREEE....!!! I'm free to do anything in my leisure time from now on! [I didn't say that my friends who join that kader can't enjoy their time, cause everyone has their own meaning of happiness, and for me,, my happiness means : to do what i like and be what i want to! u know what i mean]

so, that's all.....................
BTW, As I'm sure that i will not pass that final test I told you before,,,,,, I'm preparing myself more seriously for OSN next year. Please.... that will be my first chance bla bla bla bla bla... okay, thanks..


[huuhh another unimportant but 'deep in meaning' post]

My Heart says....

Okay, I'm gonna stop posting in english. because I wanna chat and express my feelings freely.

mulai dari kehidupan gw yang berubah. 2 bulan yang lalu, status gw masih pelajar smp. sekarang, gw udah promosi jadi putih-abu-abu-er dan seiring kenaikan tingkat ini, yang pasti dan jelas, sebagian besar rutinitas dan dunia gw berubah. Fisik maupun batin.
sebelom masuk sma, gw ngerasa yakin bisa ngadepin perubahan ini 'easily'. tapi ternyata, gak segampang membalikan telapak tangan, perubahan ini 'lagilagi' diiringi dengan....yaahh hal itu lah.. [you know what].

perubahan yang paling saya rasakan dan ingin saya ceritakan adalah : perpindahan dari sekolah swasta ke sekolah negeri. Di smp dulu, guru gurunya ramah dan deket sama murid. kegiatan sekolah nya lebih seru dan relatif langka. exkul nya banyak dan beragam. kita bebas ekspresiin diri, ngambil jalur yang kita pengen. gedungnya bagus dan lebih nyaman seperti lapangan olahraga dan parkiran yang luas. kelas dan ruangan [kursi yang empuk, properti lain yang bagus] yang lebih nyaman, bikin kita ngerasa di rumah. murid satu angkatan yang gak terlalu banyak dan itu bikin kami jadi semakin akrab dan kuat. boleh pake sepatu warna apa aja, gak mesti item. ada baju kelas, baju angkatan, dan bajubaju kegiatan lainnya yang boleh dipake pas lagi olahraga. terus, culture nya beda. ngucapin salam ke setiap guru jika berpapasan dan meneriakan nama sekolah dengan senang dan hormat ketika kepala sekolah atau guru yang memanggil kami pada saat sambutan.

MOVIES

movies I've watched and I suggest you to watch too :

1. The Bourne Trilogy [identity, supremacy, ultimatum] action 

2. 30 days of night horror thriller

3. Pride and Prejudice romance

4. X-Men : Wolverine [i don't know where to put it. with the fighting and the battle... action or thriller maybe?]

When everything is perfectly provided...

I have a computer with an unlimited internet connections, home cable, my novel collections,  links where I can download movies for free,  links where I can download e-books for free, a PSP, a piano to be played, a 500-pieces-puzzle, a canvas to be painted..

I have so many things to do at home. why would I hang out? 

Home sweet home... 

Do You Know Mr. DARCY?

this time, I want to introduce -for you who havent known- the most gorgeous novel character I've ever known in the past 1 year. He is... FITZWILLIAM DARCY from Pride and Prejudice. I like both the character in the story and the actor [Matthew McFadyen] who played as mr darcy in the film. He played sooo well and one of the greatest actors and artist. I have inquired that he really appreciates arts, and literatures.

Here are some photos of him when he played as mr. darcy

It's Over

dear readers,

finally, UN is OVER. However, I "don't" feel any relief..!!

The test [science] was hard. It don't know if i could reach a perfect score on that test. But I really really do hope I could get 100 on science.


Now, I just have to wait for the results. [and the nervous comes up again]

1 more DAY, 1 last CHANCE

Yes, readers, there's still 1 day left forUN. 

I feel a little bit relieved that it will be over soon and I could get some rest. But in the other side, I feel extremely NERVOUS. why?? because I realise, by the meaning of "last day" it's also the meaning of my "last chance" to do better. Tomorrow IS my last chance to pay my previous mistakes [if i have any..on bahasa indonesia, english, and maths. But i hope I don't have any]. you know what i mean..

tomorrow will be the perfection of my efforts and hard-works in these past 3 years

Wish me success!

How Could I?

I'm STUCK with a novel in the middle of UN??!!  H-O-W   C-O-U-L-D  I?

This novel is... -a very great one- PRIDE AND PREJUDICE

This is such an interesting novel to read. [aside from its language style]

This Jane Austen's novel uses a-19th's british english. It's so hard to understand [for me]

I like the story,though. If you don't wanna read it, well, you can watch it. Starring by Keira Knightley and Matthew McFayden.

Wish me success for the final exam :D

my beloved teacher, get well soon,please!!

this is a really SAD news.  One of my teacher has a breast cancer. maybe, just a little of you have known this news.

I, as a student of her, feel extremely sad. I remember her effort in teaching me bahasa indonesia. She enjoyed her time in class. But it's a pity that some of my classmates ignored and made fun of her. how disgusting they were! didn't theyfeel sorry for her?!

please, stop teasing her. prove her that she's been a good teacher by reaching a high mark on bahasa indonesia final exam! Prove her that all her sacrifices of energy and time are not useless..!

Allah, please give her the cure for her cancer... Make it go away from her body

Mrs N, please get well soon. I can't wait to see you in my class again, teaching and smiling as a happy free woman...

Facebook???

Now, everybody loves facebook!! It's sort of website which help you to make new friends or if you already have friends, you can join.  chat with them and know more bout them. It's just like friendster and myspace. [I think friendster's getting old fashioned. hehe.. but i still have an account there, though]

all this time, I thought my teachers don't even know how to send an e-mail [ok, I'm exaggerating]. But I was shocked to see that some of them have facebook accounts. they are getting modern! fuuihh.. FACEBOOK!!

so now, not only youngsters can use the internet for fun. haha happy globalisation *lol*

School Library

I recommend you to read this post esp for you, who really like to read books, novels, or text books or anything else and you're a student of Labschool Jakarta junior & senior high.

Well, it is about Labschool Jakarta's school library. Temporarily, it's using an emergency room which was finished being built up approximately 4 months ago  [due to the fire tragedy on July 08]. But, 'emergency room' is not an ER you usually see in hospitals. Not also a small, dirty, hot room. Although I call it "emergency",  it is a big, clean, and cool room.

See? It also has complete collections of books. You can read newly published novels and other books! Like in this picture below... There are a complete Dan Brown Books, Harry Potter books, Twilight saga and other new novels. All the books in this library are very interesting!!! If you're interested in science and text book, you can find Campbell [international biology text book] and lots of scripts and thesis' which were made by Labschool Jakarta senior high students. 

Take  a look at this picture below!! It's a display box of 6 recent books. there is "my sister's keeper by jodi picoult", "Brisingr by [I don't know who]", and others..

AND...... Which is pretty cool, this library has internet and audio visual facilities...!! hehehe... You can browse the internet, and watch movies. It's free but you've gotta sign up before using. 

You want to practice your english?? In this library, there are dozens of english books. [in the shelf beside the copycat]

So, don't forget to visit Labschool Jakarta's Library.. But make sure you don't bring food or drink and also be quiet when you're in there. ss.