Read The Sign

Hello readers,

It's gonna be a short post. I'm studying cardiac physioloy right now and I'm so amazed at it that I feel the urge to write something.


1. I'm so mesmerized about how our body's structures are perfectly created and designed that they support the organs to function properly. Take a simple example, our heart valve (katup jantung). They are designed as incredibly as it is to open only to one side (unidirectionally), preventing the backflow of the blood. And how the vasa recta of our kidney bend like that allowing the countercurrent mechanism to occur.

2. I can't stop admiring how our body works. Although it's so complex that I have to put so much effort to understand it and get good scores on my exam ;). For example (I'm not sure if you understand it), before the SA impulse reaches the AV, there is a slight delay. It's meant to give the ventricle time to fill completely and effectively.



It's really hard to explain briefly how amazing our body works , unless you learn it by yourself. The thing is, with every lesson I learn, I become more aware that our body is so complex that it cannot just exist spontaneously. There must be something that creates it. And that something can do far beyond what human  are capable of doing. And I believe it as God (Allah).


So, sometimes I wonder why there are people who don't believe in God, especially if those people are biology experts. Cause i think the best way to observe God's mightiness is by learning about living organisms. And the only thing that human can't create is a soul that makes something alive (bio = life).


So, read the sign that Allah has given through Allah's creations

Mind Palace

Akhirnya hanya kau dan aku lagi

Duduk termenung saling menatap

Di tengah bangku panjang tak berpenghuni

Bahkan nyamuk pun enggan hinggap

Seolah tak ingin mengganggu 2 jiwa tanpa jati diri

Cahaya lampu menyentuh wajahmu

Memperlihatkan sepasang bola mata yang menatap tajam ke arahku

Kedua mata yang selalu berbinar penuh semangat menggebu

Saat kau ungkapkan mimpi-mimpimu padaku

Dulu, ketika kita sering menghabiskan waktu

hanya kau dan aku

Kulihat kini sepasang mata itu sayu

Dan dahi yang selalu kau kernyitkan

Dan lidahmu yang kelu

Ketika aku bertanya kemana mimpi-mimpimu

Malam semakin gelap

Ular besi pun terus bergerak

Membawa kita menapaki kenangan lalu

Semakin jauh, semakin hanyut aku dalam rindu

Hendak kemana kita?

Bukankah kita selalu terombang ambing tanpa tujuan?

Hanya mengikuti kemana angin berhembus

Lalu mengapa kupertanyakan?

Kau tahu aku hanya mengharapkan suatu keajaiban

Yang dapat mendatangkan kembali mimpi-mimpi kita

Yang dapat membuatmu tetap tegar

Kutatap lagi sepasang bola matamu

Aku akan menanti kedatanganmu

Di tempat kita biasa bertemu, Istana pikiranmu

Dan saat itu, seperti saat-saat sebelumnya

hanya kau dan aku

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Definitely not a love verse.

Why am I complaining on the social media?

Hello readers!

I know you may notice that I've been complaining a lot lately. My complaints are mostly about traffic and my study. I do not deny that. In fact, nothing can really boil my blood but the traffic. And when I start talking about it, I probably turn into the most hate-able person on earth.
So, unless you want to pick a fight with me, don't ever, ever, argue with me about the traffic, ever!

I've never felt so disturbed because of the traffic like this before. Not before I finally could drive and experience how ugly it is by myself. There are so many people on the street who disobey the rule, most of them are scooter bikers. And I realized a fact that I cannot close my eyes on wrong doings that happen right in front of me.  I feel like I have the responsibility to correct them. Because if I don't, it means I encourage them to repeat it again. And if I reprove them for disobeying the rule, at least I have tried to disapprove their behavior.

But I can't reprove them, I can't tell them directly that they're doing wrong. I'm outnumbered, they're just too many -the scooter drivers and other "law disobey-er".  :(
This is why I feel so desperate. I want to change something that I'm not capable of.
I thought maybe if I just post my complaint on the social media, my friends will read it and take the lesson from it. And I really hope that more people will read and the change that first seems impossible becomes possible.

I know it's annoying to read people's complaints, as if they're not feeling grateful of what they have. But, if the complaints are to make you realize of what you've been doing wrong, why not spend a little time to read and learn from it?

Fate

Living a life as a med student is a real struggle. I even think we should change the term "med student" to "MAD student" cause it suits us better. Actually, it suits me better. With all the heart-pumping things going on inside, i barely survive each day. Just like walking with my eyes closed, i never know what problems will come up. And i dont know whether i can handle it. Perhaps i will fail it. But thats just fate.

Especially in this campus. People call it "kampus perjuangan". Indeed, I truly agree with them because studying in this campus is really a struggle. And it's like riding on a roller coaster, turning you upside down, carrying you through the loops.

Speaking about roller coaster, I once rode on a roller coaster. At the beginning, I was very scared and anxious. Afraid that I might fall. When I got to the top and the cart was ready to slide down, I didn't care about anything anymore. I just went through it, hoping to pass it even faster. And finally the cart stopped at the station and the game ended. I got off the cart. But do you know what I thought after getting off the cart?

"It was exciting! LET'S DO IT AGAIN"

Sometimes, we are afraid of challenges and just want to skip them.
And after we finish it, we often think back and wish we had enjoyed our single moment.

Human truly never appreciates what they have, unless some of them.
And human never stops worrying about the future until they have an assurance that everything's going to be fine.
But if you are a pious believer of Allah, you shouldn't have worried because you know your fate was already scripted million years ago.