Mom and Dad

I am the youngest child in my family. My mom is 50 years old and my father is 52 years old. I love them so much.

Every time I want to do something, I always ask for their permission. Cause if I don't get one, I will feel miserable doing the thing. I won't regret any time I spent with them, even if I have to turn down my friend's offer.

I always try to please them with everything I can. It's actually a thing I've just realized. When last semester I didn't get very good scores, I couldn't stop thinking about disappointing them. I feel guilty. It's just I don't like disappointing them.

I know, I haven't been a good daughter. I mean, sometimes I said something horrible to them. But that's just a sudden anger, I can't control myself. As soon as I calm down, I really really regret that.

Today, I refused coming with them and the others to Bogor for a holiday. I know that my father really wanted me to go because it's been a long time since we went together. Our family is growing, we are busy with our own activities. My brother sometimes busy with his work, my big sister's now concentrating on her work in the clinic, my other sister's preparing for her final examination, and I'm too much busy with this "subsi" thing. Today, is a national holiday. Everyone has a day off. So it's time to gather around. But, I can't. I have something to do.

Even though I have friends, but sometimes I feel so wrong with them. They're just friends. They don't know the right thing and the best thing for me. But with my parents, I trust them. They know the best thing for me. They care about me, which friends sometimes don't.

I really miss us. And I don't wanna to lose you...

A Ten-Day Holiday

Hey guys, I'm in holiday right now cause my seniors are having their final examination.
There are lots of things I want to tell you. Lots of..

1. CONGRATULATIONS to my extraordinary, king of "GALAUNESS", AFANDI CHARLES, who will represent Indonesia in International Biology Olympiad this year!!!! I am really happy for you. It is a shocking yet a very good news at all. I feel so proud of him. It's really amazing, you know, being his friend. We talk, we chat, we even laugh together. But I didn't know that I actually talk to someone who will participate in this prestigious competition, IBO. Well, here's him..





For other IBO 2011 participants, watch out for this guy. Cause insya Allah he's gonna bring the gold home. :)

2. I've just finished watching Roswell. All in one week! crazy isn't it? well, I could hardly believe it myself. But, I did watched it in one week. I slept late night to finish it.
The story is quite interesting. It'a about aliens who were sent to earth, in Roswell, precisely. They fight against their enemies, the other aliens, also against humans who hunts and wants to study them. But not every humans are their enemies. only the FBI. They have human family and human lover.
What I don't like from Roswell is when Max give up his baby. For me, he is really irresponsible. Even though it's dangerous to have his baby around him, but there is no option to throw the baby away to another family. Doesn't he ever think what his son will feel when he grows up later? Beside, if he wants to throw away the baby, he shouldn't have slept with Tess. That's just so selfish.

3. I intend to participate in a medical competition for high school students. There are two different medical competitions held by two different universities. They are NOMS from Gajah Mada University, Jogja and AMSA from University of Indonesia. The first selection of NOMS will be held this Saturday, April 23rd (If I'm not mistaken). It's not likely that I will join this competition, because I haven't registered myself till now. I'm just so running out of time. For AMSA, I don't know. But my friend said the selection will be around May.


That's all for now... :)

This Is How The Education Goes in My Country

I feel it, as a student in my country. The quality of our education is very low. At school, we (high school students) start our class from 06.30 AM in the morning (sharp) till 15.15 PM in the afternoon. Crazy, isn't it?

Perhaps, people think that studying NINE HOURS a day can make them smart, but the fact is quite the opposite. In my opinion, it's because our nine-hour study only teaches us little. Well, I can say that the students and teachers here are "scores-orientated".

Why can I say that?

Because, no one is truly dedicated for studying or teaching.

Some teachers are ignorant. They're too lazy to teach or answer the student's questions. They make excuses, like "I'm too tired, I've explained it. Just find your own way to understand it!". Some teachers still use traditional teaching method. They talk, the students listen. We don't discuss. Some teachers let the class noisy.
But for me personally, the main problem that teachers of my country have is their passion of being a teacher. A passion that a teacher should have and always keep in mind! That is, to make the students UNDERSTAND what they didn't.

In the other side, the students are also careless of their own education. Some students are noisy in class, they don't listen to what the teachers explain. Most of the students in my country don't study again at home after school. Even though at school they don't actually study seriously. So the lessons they don't understand are accumulating.

When the examination is coming up, they start to study ONE day before the exam. They collect problem sets that has a high probability of showing up on the exams. Even sometimes, the teachers deliberately give the students the problem sets which actually IS the Exam questions. (In short, the teachers teach the student to have good scores without studying hard. Because if the students got bad scores on their lecture, they'll be blamed).

Ironically, even after the students have had those exam questions, some of the them still cheat on the test. I can swear that 90% of all students in my country cheat on their test. Every school, even the GREATEST or PRESTIGIOUS school can't keep their school clean from cheaters. That's what make me feel so sad.


So readers, it all comes back to our "life orientation". If you only want money, you want "fake" happiness, keep on going the things that I said! But, If you want to make yourself SATISFY of your own hard work and feel the real happiness, do all these things full-heartedly. And change your own direction, that YOU want a USEFUL knowledge not only GOOD SCORES.

WEll, that's all.. I don't expect everyone to agree with me. I'm just trying to open everyone's hearts. And right now I'm really really upset. But actually, I'm getting used to this feeling. I appreciate your comments. :)