Waiting

I'm waiting here, in my house, in my room.

Though it looks very comfortable, it doesn't affect my "uneasy" heart.

My heart, o yes, it is miserable.

So much to think of..

My heart, full of hopes, full of worries, full of predictions, half-filled with regrets

But our predictions cannot predict the future.

Just as our eyes can't see through the skies.

My Heart, is the most unpredictable thing

I'll never know what it'd feel in a day or two..

Will it shine like a bulb conducted with strong electrolyte?

I'll never know..

But I always know that

I have to keep it continue shining from day to day, no matter what's happening

Cause there is my future, waiting for me!

Misery

I'm dreadful and feeling awkward. There are so many things I have to do. There are things that still undone. Worse, another problems start coming. And there isn't any certainty. I wanna go away. I've given everything up for this one. I don't want to feel any more disappointment. and I hope I won't. 

I have no one to talk with. Even if I have, they won't understand, they'll misunderstand. I'm alone. I'm all alone. I've always been all alone.

I know, running away won't solve my problems. But that's what you want to do when you're encountering so many problems, is it not?

a little chitchat

Readerss..... Today is the opening ceremony for Fifa World Cup 2010...!!!! Hurray..

I thought I'd miss this show but fortunately I did not. It started at 07.45 pm (GMT+7).

Lately I've been very lazy, guys. I didn't even study for sumatif test -__-". And that is what I truly regret cause the tests were unbelievably hard for me but not for others. I'm also limiting myself from involving in organizations for a while. Not that I don't care about it any more or I find it lil bit boring, but I think this is just not the right time for things like that. Mom told me I should be able to manage my time. She said that I have only 1 body, but I want everything. The point is, I couldn't get everything I want. There must be something to sacrifice. It makes sense, really. I realize that there are always costs and risks in everything I do. One thing we should always remember is never put vital things of your life on risk. We can set priority, you know. And to be honest, organizations are on the bottom of my list.

Now I am waiting for the announcement. Wish me success, guys!