He

He's a stranger.

Everybody talked about him. Everybody knew him.

Neither because he did well on sport, nor because he won any competition.

It's because something usual. He got a perfect score when no one did.

I just heard what everybody said.

I just heard about him.

I just "imagined" what he looked like.

He's an acquaintance.

When I asked some people to gather around, he showed up.

But I never asked him and I never minded him either.

That day, we were officially introduced to one another

And also... the first time I saw what I had been imagining.

He's a partner.

Basically, we worked on a same project.

Even though what I did and what he did were slightly different.

When I got problems, I often asked for his opinion. He had plenty ideas

He cared and responsible.

He's a very great partner to work with.

and I really respect him.

He's a friend.

We shared our experiences.

We reminded each other about something important.

We learned something from each other.

He always helps me whenever I ask him.

He's very kind, money doesn't mean a lot for him.

He always supported me and never he made any excuses to cover up his faults.

I have to say that I will remember him

but please note that my statement doesn't mean I "romantically" in love with him.

I write this post as a tribute for all of his contributions.

May us be friends forever..

The First Month of Being a 12th Grader

It's been a month since I became a twelfth grader. From what I experienced this month, I can predict what kind of life I'll have until this year's over.

Perhaps this semester is the most important because it decides who deserves SNMPTN Undangan form. And everybody is like... MAD. The atmosphere is extremely tense and uncomfortable. You know, I've participated in many competitions, but I never like to compete. I hate competitions. I hate when there's a side to win and the other has to lose.

When I was in holiday in June, I'd always wanted to fast forward the time into living as a twelfth grader. I was so eager to start a new page of my life. Thought I could do better and I actually wanted to, as soon as possible, improve my scores. But the fact is quite the opposite.

The facts that every lessons are difficult and every students have motivated themselves then transformed into a machine -which thinks as fast as a calculator and works as long as a computer with no sense of boredom or fatigue- make me think twice over my eagerness to write a flawless golden page in my life's history.

Every time I feel down like this, I always remember what my father said. He said,"Just run as fast as you can without looking at your opponents. What you need to do is try your best and enjoy every single moment. And in the end, you have to resign it to Allah Azza wa jalla. Because nothing can stop what Allah wants. If Allah wants to give you something, then no one can hamper it. Vice versa, if Allah doesn't want to give you something, then you won't get it no matter how hard you try."

With this new beginning.. I hope I can survive. I just have to try. At least try.. About the result... we'll see next year.

- This is story of a student who's worrying her future.

Science Marathon

Hey, readers... first of all, happy Ramadhan!! ^^ (i know it's a bit late, day 13th already)

Today's post is about "Science Marathon"...!!! It's a competition but I prefer to call it a game. Because rather than just stuck with a bunch of questions, this game involves a lot of fun! I'm so eager to tell you the detail about this event *gasabar*

SMA Negeri 8 Jakarta presents a huge event this year in September. We call it "8Schoolastic" abbreviation for 8 School Art and Science National Competition. This 8Schoolastic or SCH (es-ce-ha) for short, consists of several branches of competition. And as the name's shown, they are classified into art or science competition.

Science marathon is one of its branch that belongs in the science group, as seen on its name. You don't have to be afraid if you can't run. Because it's fully science, regardless the "marathon" word. The game will be in teams. So, to join this game you have to submit your team to the committee. One team must consists 4 high school students from the same school.

This game has 3 parts.

1. The elimination round (babak penyisihan). In this round, the four members will be separated into 4 different classes. And every one of them will be given a problem set that differ in subject (the subjects are maths, physics, chemistry, and biology). For example team 1 consists of A, B, C, D. In the first round A will be doing the maths test, while B will do the physics, C will do the chemistry, and D will do the biology test. There will be 15 teams that pass this round. get it?

2. The Quiz round (babak cerdas cermat). In this round, all members are united together.They have to work together to defeat other teams in cerdas cermat round. In each round, 3 teams will be pitted. So, the total round is 5. Each team will choose 1 envelope consisting 10 compulsory questions. After that, the moderator will ask 15 questions and the team that rings the bell first deserve to answer the question. The first winner of each cerdas cermat round will proceed to the next round.

3. The Marathon round (babak marathon). Why this round called "marathon"? because, the finalists will be moving from one location to another to answer the questions. There'll be 5 different test locations. Different locations has different theme and the questions asked in each location will be coherent with it. Every team will get into those 5. And....the exciting thing is there will be a clue which leads to the next location. Every time they solve the mystery given in the clue, they'll be rewarded some points. And the committee will also record their time for solving questions in each location. Finally, the committee will rank every finalists based on their points.

Interesting isn't that?? You can train your brain but you won't feel bored because the committees wrap it in a fun way. Don't be hesitate to join...!! comment if you want :) .

oohh I almost forget.. of course the winner will get prize

1. The first winner will get Rp 4.000.000 + medal + sertificate

2. The second winner will get Rp 3.000.000 + medal + sertificate

3. The third winner will get Rp 2.000.000 + medal + sertificate

So.... what are you waiting for????? SUBMIT YOUR TEAM NOW to the committee (SMA NEGERI 8 JAKARTA) or you can comment to this post or you can follow @8Schoolastic via twitter.

My Shopping Behavior

Hey readerss...!!! Today I went to a stationery store in Matraman, let's say G (name isn't mentioned :p). I just planned to buy a ruler and a clear holder, but in fact....

1. I walked through the wide main room towards the stationery area. But then, something caught my eyes. "what's that so catchy?" oh...it turns out a new stand which sold unique and high quality stuffs. Interested and curious, I finally approached one of the stuff they sold. A shopkeeper started explaining every details about this and that, offered me other items and even followed me everywhere!!! Did he have a crush on me or what? *pedemode:on*. I asked dozens of questions like "how long will it last?" or "do you have this folder in green?" He answered vigorously as I picked more and more items. When I finally decided which one is the best, I checked for the price. Suddenly, there was a lightning strike, a thunder, an electric shock on my chest. expensiiiivveee..!!!!! I quickly put everything back to its place and ran away. "sorry Mr. shopkeeper for wasting your time...!!!

2. I got back on track --> to the stationery area. Sprightly I walked to where the "rulers" are located. "I want to buy a flexible ruler which can't be broken", I thought. I picked one but when I observed it, there was a scratch on it.
"Aahhh must find another one..!!" I said. 15 minutes had passed and then finally.... "ffuuhhh, this one is flawless :) (relieved)". But when I about to leave that spot, I glanced back. "waiitt... what's that? a longer ruler?" I came back and dwelt with rulers again. The new one was twice longer than the last one but not flexible and wasn't green (I'm a green-mania, fyi). I started to think... "which one do I need the most? the flexible or the longer one? I think I need a long ruler. But it's not green!!!" I was confused. While I was counting the advantages and the lacks of each, my eyes uncontrollably glanced to other bunch of rulers. And I thought "That one is cute". My options became much more. And I got even more confused. @.@ "shoott... If only I could buy all of them T__T". Finally... after AN HOUR... I went to the cashier without looking back or else I would be hesitant again....


That's my shopping behavior.... In summary... first, it's very common for me not to buy things I've selected before (usually because of price issue xp ). second, it's also very common for me to take a long time on deciding the best item I should buy.

But I think most of women do the same. Well, my parents (esp Mom) told me to be scrupulous when I want to buy something. Because in this country, consumers are often tricked. So be careful... ^^

Loneliness

Hey readers.. last week, SP and I went to Garut to do our "proker", Risma (Riset Ilmiah). We went there on Tuesday, July 5th and left on Saturday, July 9th.
I'm not going to tell the detail about that event. Cause I believe it's going to be hundreds of pages (I'm exaggerating >.<). No, seriously.. it is so unexplainable and indescribable.

I really like being there.. the air was fresh and cold. every morning, I always woke up shivering, cause I didn't bring any blankets or sleeping bag! the temperature there was approximately 15 degrees celcius. Well, for you who live in Europe, it's nothing. But for me, it's deadly freezing. Also, we always saw the sunrise at the edge of a cliff (but not a very high one). we saw the sun climbed up between two mountains. What we saw was exactly the same as a kid's drawing. kekekekkekkee... After that, to warm my body I usually ordered hot tea or coffee.



On the second and the third day, I went to the villager's houses to collect data for our research. The people there are very friendly. This is what I like from people who lives in the *almost* isolated village, they're nice. They spoke Sundanese, most of them I didn't understand. I just nodded and smiled or composed a serious face depended on their expressions and intonations.

There, I felt SP as my family, cause in 5 days we lived together. We ate together and every day we always saw each other. we even slept in one room (boys and girls slept in distinguished rooms, fyi). we joked and we carried each other's burdens. There, I was noticed. Everybody knew me and they cared for me. We are alike, I mean, we share some similarities. No one is more superior than the others. Everyone's equal. I believe at least once you found someone who has the same interest as yours.

I understand if you can't feel it because as I said before, It can't be described by words. You have to feel it yourself.


And now, I'm back to school. There's no more living as one party. We're scattered in different classes. In my class, I always feel lonely. I miss them.. I miss SP... I really want to have some time with you guys alone... again.... :"(

Exciting June

Hey readers! Today is the first day of July. Everybody says time goes by so fast. well, I think it does. Before I'm going through July, I want to reminisce June, a month with exciting news.

1. In June, I had finished all my final examination. Alhamdulillah, my final scores are all above the passing grade, so I don't have to re-study. My rank was improving, I also should be grateful of it.

2. I went to Bandung twice and I had fun there. Quite effective in killing my boredom.

3. I attended Cairo (Camping Islami Rohis) presented by rohis sman 8 jkt. I am one of the committee and we worked very hard to make the event unforgettable. For me, this year's cairo is unforgettable. Because we cooked our food together but it turns out quite well for high school students.

4. Alhamdulillah, my sister's got accepted in faculty of medicines, Airlangga University, Surabaya! I am very happy to hear it even though if she takes this chance, we'll be separated for several years. I hope next year I can get into faculty of medicines, University of Indonesia. aamiiinnnn :)

These are things which make my June very happy. I hope in July, there'll be more happy things.

Mom and Dad

I am the youngest child in my family. My mom is 50 years old and my father is 52 years old. I love them so much.

Every time I want to do something, I always ask for their permission. Cause if I don't get one, I will feel miserable doing the thing. I won't regret any time I spent with them, even if I have to turn down my friend's offer.

I always try to please them with everything I can. It's actually a thing I've just realized. When last semester I didn't get very good scores, I couldn't stop thinking about disappointing them. I feel guilty. It's just I don't like disappointing them.

I know, I haven't been a good daughter. I mean, sometimes I said something horrible to them. But that's just a sudden anger, I can't control myself. As soon as I calm down, I really really regret that.

Today, I refused coming with them and the others to Bogor for a holiday. I know that my father really wanted me to go because it's been a long time since we went together. Our family is growing, we are busy with our own activities. My brother sometimes busy with his work, my big sister's now concentrating on her work in the clinic, my other sister's preparing for her final examination, and I'm too much busy with this "subsi" thing. Today, is a national holiday. Everyone has a day off. So it's time to gather around. But, I can't. I have something to do.

Even though I have friends, but sometimes I feel so wrong with them. They're just friends. They don't know the right thing and the best thing for me. But with my parents, I trust them. They know the best thing for me. They care about me, which friends sometimes don't.

I really miss us. And I don't wanna to lose you...

A Ten-Day Holiday

Hey guys, I'm in holiday right now cause my seniors are having their final examination.
There are lots of things I want to tell you. Lots of..

1. CONGRATULATIONS to my extraordinary, king of "GALAUNESS", AFANDI CHARLES, who will represent Indonesia in International Biology Olympiad this year!!!! I am really happy for you. It is a shocking yet a very good news at all. I feel so proud of him. It's really amazing, you know, being his friend. We talk, we chat, we even laugh together. But I didn't know that I actually talk to someone who will participate in this prestigious competition, IBO. Well, here's him..





For other IBO 2011 participants, watch out for this guy. Cause insya Allah he's gonna bring the gold home. :)

2. I've just finished watching Roswell. All in one week! crazy isn't it? well, I could hardly believe it myself. But, I did watched it in one week. I slept late night to finish it.
The story is quite interesting. It'a about aliens who were sent to earth, in Roswell, precisely. They fight against their enemies, the other aliens, also against humans who hunts and wants to study them. But not every humans are their enemies. only the FBI. They have human family and human lover.
What I don't like from Roswell is when Max give up his baby. For me, he is really irresponsible. Even though it's dangerous to have his baby around him, but there is no option to throw the baby away to another family. Doesn't he ever think what his son will feel when he grows up later? Beside, if he wants to throw away the baby, he shouldn't have slept with Tess. That's just so selfish.

3. I intend to participate in a medical competition for high school students. There are two different medical competitions held by two different universities. They are NOMS from Gajah Mada University, Jogja and AMSA from University of Indonesia. The first selection of NOMS will be held this Saturday, April 23rd (If I'm not mistaken). It's not likely that I will join this competition, because I haven't registered myself till now. I'm just so running out of time. For AMSA, I don't know. But my friend said the selection will be around May.


That's all for now... :)

This Is How The Education Goes in My Country

I feel it, as a student in my country. The quality of our education is very low. At school, we (high school students) start our class from 06.30 AM in the morning (sharp) till 15.15 PM in the afternoon. Crazy, isn't it?

Perhaps, people think that studying NINE HOURS a day can make them smart, but the fact is quite the opposite. In my opinion, it's because our nine-hour study only teaches us little. Well, I can say that the students and teachers here are "scores-orientated".

Why can I say that?

Because, no one is truly dedicated for studying or teaching.

Some teachers are ignorant. They're too lazy to teach or answer the student's questions. They make excuses, like "I'm too tired, I've explained it. Just find your own way to understand it!". Some teachers still use traditional teaching method. They talk, the students listen. We don't discuss. Some teachers let the class noisy.
But for me personally, the main problem that teachers of my country have is their passion of being a teacher. A passion that a teacher should have and always keep in mind! That is, to make the students UNDERSTAND what they didn't.

In the other side, the students are also careless of their own education. Some students are noisy in class, they don't listen to what the teachers explain. Most of the students in my country don't study again at home after school. Even though at school they don't actually study seriously. So the lessons they don't understand are accumulating.

When the examination is coming up, they start to study ONE day before the exam. They collect problem sets that has a high probability of showing up on the exams. Even sometimes, the teachers deliberately give the students the problem sets which actually IS the Exam questions. (In short, the teachers teach the student to have good scores without studying hard. Because if the students got bad scores on their lecture, they'll be blamed).

Ironically, even after the students have had those exam questions, some of the them still cheat on the test. I can swear that 90% of all students in my country cheat on their test. Every school, even the GREATEST or PRESTIGIOUS school can't keep their school clean from cheaters. That's what make me feel so sad.


So readers, it all comes back to our "life orientation". If you only want money, you want "fake" happiness, keep on going the things that I said! But, If you want to make yourself SATISFY of your own hard work and feel the real happiness, do all these things full-heartedly. And change your own direction, that YOU want a USEFUL knowledge not only GOOD SCORES.

WEll, that's all.. I don't expect everyone to agree with me. I'm just trying to open everyone's hearts. And right now I'm really really upset. But actually, I'm getting used to this feeling. I appreciate your comments. :)

My Calling

Hey readers, I'm having holiday. Started last Wednesday and about to end soon, that is next Thursday. Means that I only have 2 days left and the fact is that I haven't done anything, yet.

I wonder why everytime I'm on holiday, I turn into a garbage? useless person? All I do is watch, or being lazy on bed, or sing along. and I hate that. but everytime I want to do something good, all I think is "I'll do it later".

Forget about that, I'm gonna tell you how my holiday was on the past 3 days. So, I watched "Tru Calling". A series that I used to watched when I was 10, but didn't fully understand and also didn't have a chance to watch it, entirely. It is a great TV shows actually. One of my bests. I can say it beats ER on my favourite list. But, one thing that I extremely hate from Tru calling is that it didn't end properly. It left me hanging with the unsolved problems. The fact that Tru hadn't known that Jack and Carrie worked with her father makes life seems unfair. The bad always won, and the good always lose. The truth had never been revealed but Tru deserved it! so do we, who watch it! damn it. I felt like disappointed right now. and I think maybe I shouldn't have watched it. I wish they continued filming it. :((

Well readers, I kinda make Tru someone I look up to. She's smart, kind, and caring. if Tru had her calling to save someone's life, then probably mine is to safe my own future. thanks to Tru, she'd made me learn a valuable lesson.
that's all for now

My Forgotten Birthday :)

Well,, I must admit that I don't celebrate Birthdays...

But just some minutes ago I suddenly wanted to look at my facebook profile. I scrolled down and down until I reach a page which contains birthday wishes for me.

My birthday is on 17th of December and it was long ago. But I just had a chance to read them all today,that is 4 months after my birthday! You know why? The day I turned into 16, I got my report book. And it was disappointing. I cried all day, I didn't even think about my birthday in short, I was too busy crying. yep, who knows that your birthday could turn out into your worst day ever?

Anyway, now I have read them all. I haven't even said "thank you" hahha (besides, I don't celebrate birthday). I laughed and I really touched that my friends, my old friends, they remembered and sent me birthday wishes! I thought I was no one, someone unimportant. But then I saw many of my friends -whom I didn't even get along each other- congratulated me.. I'm touched :")


Thanks everyone.. Barakallahufik...

Scores Degradation

I studied all night long but why didn't I get good scores? hiks hiks
I think I could do all the exercises that my teacher gave me, but in the end, my test score still bad.
I paid all my attentions to the teacher in the class, I did all the homeworks, I studied till late night, but those things didn't seem to help me answering the questions. And the result was just bad as usual.

I'm sadddd... I had tried so hard, the other student didn't even do all the homeworks, they didn't even pay attention to the teachers, but they could get good scores. Does it have something to do with my brain? or Are they just too genius? AAaaa I can't get it.

But one thing I always believe, Allah is fair.

I Realized ...

Hey readerrrss
long time no post, sorry for the long absence.
This time's topic is "I realized...."
yeah, many things happened in the last 1 month.
All in a month, 3 of my friends died.. :( and all of them died because of sick. Tragically, 2 of them had cancer and tumour. Now I begin to realize "more" that I also could die unpredictably.

I realized that life is sooo short and it is not eternal. Somehow, there will be an 'afterlife' world, something in Islam we call "akhirat", which is eternal. A place where you can feel the worst Pain ever or the best Pleasure ever. It's depend on what you do when you live.

Ironically, looking back to what I've been doing for 15 years.. I don't think I've been a good girl. I want to change, but why is it so difficult? I can't watch over my mouth. Sometimes I hurt people with it or with my attitude.

After I look at this blog, I also realized that this blog is mostly garbage -___-. I'm sorry.... I really wanna be useful. And why am I being so gushy lately?? It's embarrassing, indeed.

well, I hope this post could inspire you, :")

January, 3rd 2011

Hey readers, today I'm going back to school.

I nearly late again this morning -as I always do..-
we had a flag ceremony and this time it went well -unlike It usually does..-

Even though it's the first day of school, we had a full-day lessons. yup, that's my school. If it's not like that,well... that's not my school.
But to my surprise, I am interested in studying all the lessons. Especially when I saw my chemistry book that we are actually going to learn about "buffer" and "acid-base". It's kinda have a tight relationship with biology. Beside, class seemed to me more "friendly".

I hope this is a good start. I always hope for the best. :)

Fettucini Carbonara

Hey readeeerrss... I'm soo happy that I finally can make delicious fettucini carbonara with my sister :). So, I searched the recipe on the internet but different sources tell different ways and that really confused me. At first, we made a bowl of carbonara sauce and it tasted good but we had 90 minutes to get it right.

But today, we only needed 25 minutes and everything went well. so here's what I did.

1. I didn't use garlic. My first trial went bad because of it. I only used 1 but the smell and taste was very strong till it's nothing but garlic. I don't recommend using garlic, but it's up to you.

2. Fry the smoked beef until it's brownish. Then, put the milk into it. well, I can't give you the exact dose, I hope you can estimate it by yourself.

3. Let the beef does its work. Your sauce will smell like the real carbonara now.

4. When it is boiling, put flour (careful here, don't use too much flour. Mine was only 1 tablespoon).

5. Put a half teaspoon of maizena, then stir it gently.

6. Put salt or margarine to make it more salty

7. Done...!!


Well, that's it. If there's a mistake, well.. I just wanna share. I'm just an amateur chef. I hope it's useful.. Don't be afraid to try.. :)

A few things about me that no one ever discovers

I'm trying to be a good girl
My goal is to live in heaven
I write my diary everyday or at least frequently
I like cooking
I want to be a professional doctor so bad
I want to be a neurophysiologist
I want to be a surgeon
I want to be a good wife
I love green
I always want to go to England
I'm keen on biology
I love sports
I like to jog
I can't resist not to swim when I see a swimming pool
I love beaches and seas
I love to play with water and get wet
I am an ambitious girl
I care about people I love
I love kids and children
I want to be a good mother
I want to have cute, adorable and good children someday
I talk too much
I talk to myself
I hate to be disappointed and betrayed
I am bold
I get too silly and careless sometimes
I am a very shy girl especially on love
I cannot look into the eyes of someone I love
I avoid meeting someone I love because I always afraid that I don't look good
I want everything to go smoothly
I want to try everything
I want to invent something
I hate crowd
I prefer being alone
I often think about what's going to happen
I have a complicated mind

Happy Holiday...!!!

hey readers.. happy holiday!
starting this week, I am officially on holiday. I love holiday but sometimes I just don't know how to spend my time without spending lots of money. And I really like to train my skills. Generally, I want to make this holiday useful. I don't want to sit all day in front of my tv, watching some unqualified programs. Perhaps I'll have to read books and books ~that's what I'm trying to do~ or learn something like cooking.

Those two things are definitely what I'm gonna dwell with. If I could, I want to read human anatomy book. But If I get too lazy or too tired to study, I might end up reading novels instead.

I've started cooking dinner or lunch. At the beginning, my Mom told me the recipe. but last night, I cooked with my own instinct. and my "udang goreng mentega" was simply tasty. :)

I don't mean to brag or boast myself. I just want to motivate you to have a useful holiday. think about something useful...!!

Happy Holidaaayy...!!!

Last Week

Hi readers, how are you?
It's kind of sad to realize that this week is my last week for this semester. Before all of the students go on holiday and even before me, myself, dwell with my holiday, I really want to enjoy every minutes I have at school. Suddenly school becomes friendly. Maybe because I don't have to sit all day and listen to the teachers. Perhaps because lately I went to school, met my friends and had fun without a single glimpse of studying. But to be honest, I love school. Because at school, I learn lots of things. like people's behavior, their attitudes, their thoughts, and so on.

Have I told you that I love to go anywhere by myself alone? I enjoy my journey home alone everyday. You know why? well, lately I've been using train as my major transportation, because it's fast. Although train is commonly used by lower-middle community and it's often fully-loaded or even over-loaded with passengers, I really love it. when I wait for the train at the train station, I see people around me. people who, in reality, live near me. people who I always forget when I live my life... when I eat in an exclusive restaurants, watch a movie in the cinema, or spend my money carelessly...! someday, I saw an old woman. Her dress was dirty, her face was sweaty and her hair was tangled. She had tanned skin, looked like she had walked around under the sunstroke. she carried a huge sack of i-don't-have-any-idea-what's-in-there. But it was so bulging. she passed over me and there was a surge of compassion inside my heart. If I were her.. well i don't know what I'm going to do. She probably had children to feed. Not only food, but education. Sometimes that makes me be grateful of what I have and not to waste every chance that probably suck for me but not everyone has that chance. for example, study at the best high school. I know, studying at sman 8 is absolutely tiring. but not everyone has a chance to go to this school and I will be very ungrateful if I'm just playing around. There are lots of things that I take as benefit of going somewhere alone by public transportations. The point is it opens my eyes to a real reality of life. Reality of living in Indonesia, the so-called rich of resources country.

I hope for prosperity. I pity them who don't have as good destiny as I have. Perhaps someday there'll be leaders who understand and care. and that leaders should be from my generation. that's why I really hope, my friends, let's not waste our time. let's be serious. it's not hard to try. we can try it together and by that, we can make it lots easier. please.. consider what our country will be if the next leaders have the same mind as them who rules this country today. don't be so egoistic. we have to change!

Holiday's coming

yeayyy finally holiday's coming!
I can't wait to do lots of things. Gosh, I should make a list.

What should I do first??
Learn to cook, learn to drive, go to the cinema, watch some movies, swim, ice skating, hang out with my friends, go to doofuun amusing park!! fheww.. lots of things I wanna do.

Is it december already?? wow.. time passes so fast. seems like 2 or several months ago my family and I just had a vacation in lombok, but in fact... It was last year.

Entering December

Heyyy, readers!! long time no post... And sorry for the long absence. Don't have time,as usual. kekeke

So, here are some updates:

1. Final-test week!! started this monday and will be ended next monday. And today's Friday, which means I've got 1 day to go. (too much word "day" blah)

2. My scores... hmm.. aren't too bad (at least for myself). Alhamdulillah. But still not as "shiny" as they were last year T_____T.

3. Last week. Perhaps the hardest week of this year. I've gotta catch all the midterm-tests make up all in 3 days. And two of my teachers scolded me because they think I've been stalling the time blablablaa... But the climax was on Thursday last week, when I couldn't hold my tears any longer -____-. But well... it has passed, why do I have to think about it anyway..??

4. I NEED A LONG VACATION. Just realized that this year I'm sooo busy that I haven't rested since...January, I guess. Yep. On January 2010 school started, and then came that "kader" time. OSN followed after and school again till August und dann Pelatnas. Then I had to catch up every lessons at school again.. And now.. I still have to study for this final test.

5. I do hope ~I really hope~ that all my effort is worthwhile. I have some targets, you know. That is, to at least persist on the top 3 of all classes. It's my goal. But I know it won't be easy and so I have to try. Especially on maths next monday cause I've already ruined my chem! ohhhh I wish I didn't really did that bad on chem.. :( But I hope the result will be surprisingly different. aamiin..

that's all for now,
Gotta go hit the shower... Byeee ^^