Self-Confidence Crisis?

Have you ever looked into the mirror and disgrace your own reflection?
Have you ever stared blankly at something while your mind is swept away by your shameful memories?

I do.
And I do that a lot.

I'm a slow learner and I don't have that sharp mind.
I can't really focus on something or concentrate for a long time.
I hate playing a mind-twisting game in which players are showing off their intelligence.
I'm not wise and I hardly give advise to anyone because I know that I'm the one who need the advise more than anyone else.
I can't make good speeches which can burn the audience's passion like every choleric person does.
If I try to make one, I end up being lost in my own maze of sentences.

So who am I?

I'm an impulsive, spontaneous, and simple-minded girl
And I hate wasting my time debating over something important, and obviously also, unimportant matters.
I tell people explicitly and directly what I want to say

Just like a grenade, if you pull the pin, I'll explode.
So easily predictable, I might say.

If it's not because of God's mercy, I'll never have come this far.

And..why am I telling you these?
Maybe because I have to stop being so pathetic.